I am scared of love songs.

Sitting alone .I happen to play this song on my cell...Tu Bin Bataye.....Rang De Basanti....
Nothing wrong with the song...prob the situation in which i am in .....makes me write this...

I feel scared of anythin romantic...................
Feel tired of the run....the run to find a companion for myself............and feel scared of the loneliness....which haunts me....it says...oh..u are alone once again....lemme come ..give you some company..make you feel lone some..aloof..
How so ever genuine a smile ..cant really..take the pain of the fact that my efforts have failed..back to zero...from where I started....yet again.
I did it once.to one...it haunts me now..as if telling me. " I just wanted to make sure .u see the other side too.."..
feel helpless and bewildered....
I dont know..whats in store for me....how ..with whom...when..will i settle down...........I dont knw....i am scared of the hunt.the new begining.....cause in the hunt process...i might be hunted.

I didnt really know.where to say all this....the blog comes to rescue.!!.:)